I am 26 years old,I simply got into sex out of ignorance like millions of young people today.My addiction placed me as the highest abortionist at the age of 26 and now,I have a sad story to tell.
Until I found myself in a total mess,I never really had an idea what premarital sex was all about.I never knew it was so useless and killing.Before I got into it,I use to think it was more fun and I dreamt of it more often than not.I wished with all my heart to have a boyfriend whom we would explore it together,little did I know that I was being nasty to myself.
Because of things I see on TV and magazines,I thought having sex was so much fun,I fantasizes about It each time I felt lonely.Only if I had known that everything I see in movies and soap operas were just action and make belief; only if I had known that there is nothing in sex after all,the only thing in it is self destruction;I think my life wouldn't be this miserable.
It's a pity I really had to learn the hard way and I really wish I had never being born,I wish I had not come out into this deceitful world where nobody cares about young people,all the so called adults do is try to play on the intelligence of young people in a bit to exploit and use them to satisfy their insatiable and sexual passion.I really feel bad about this wicked world
My plight started when I was sixteen then I was still a virgin and in secondary school,I was ignorant of many things as what I saw on TV and on the internet was all that roamed on my mind.More so,a couple of so called Anti-AIDS people visited us in school a couple of times for lectures,but all they did was to introduce sex to us even more because they really had nothing but condoms to show
Fine, they talked about AIDS,but at the same time, they never really said anything real about sex,they said we could contact AIDS not through sex,but unprotected sex,which means there was nothing wrong with sex as long as you could use condoms,but all of that I now know very well are lies,and I wonder why men and women would enjoy telling teenagers deadly lies like that.
Even though I can't blame those people totally for my plight because they weren't really the ones that said I should go into sex,I still haven't forgiven them for encouraging me and other young people like me me into sex with their preaching for protected sex with condoms.Even though I wanted to see what sex was really like and I fantasized about it,some where within me,I was still very scared of what may happen to me afterwards if I tried it,and it was that fear that actually kept me away from it until I was sixteen.
By the time I was sixteen,my fantasy had gotten enough boost to express itself with reliance I said to myself one day ‘‘Free yourself baby girl,there is nothing terrible in sex,can't you see every one is doing it,by the way you can always use condoms nothing will happen.
So I finally decided to let go of my fears and embrace in totality my silly fantasies,and that was how I took the very first step into this miserable life of illicit sex. I had absolutely no idea of what I was going into.
I finally agreed to date a guy who had been disturbing me for more than a year , his name was Andrew.Andrew was five years older than me.Both of us began enjoying sex,-we did it every second,every minute ; - I became addicted that I didn't love doing it with condoms anymore.Within the period,I had 14 abortions for Andrew,and not only that , I cheated on him on several occasions,I felt doing it with other guys would give me a better sensation but all were the same.
My school teacher got me and at the end of the day I had 6 abortions for him.And the worst was my sexual affairs with my close relations,which resulted to 5 abortions.Then I felt I was at the top of the world.I will never forgive my friends who introduced me into partying and sleeping with old men with potbelly and rough skin only in the name of sex.
Right now,all those men have gone,and
shadow of my past sexual life still follows me around.All this pills and tablets I took are now telling on my blood stream.At times I felt like commiting suicide each time I remember what the doctor told me, ‘‘Tessy,I am sorry,your womb is automatically damaged on account of the several abortions you had’’ ,‘I'm sorry,you will never conceive again in your life,but just thank God,you don't have HIV or AIDS.
I therefore,advise every young girl reading this piece today,to over look every fantasy towards sex,sex is good but it has its time. And that is in marriage.Keep youself away from men.Make friends with those who mean good for your future.
Source: Chameleon Magazine
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